Make Over

gotta make some serious make overs. well, over everything worth mentioning in my life, which is quite a lot. or not. well, will need to figure it out as well. so the point is, gonna move to another blog for awhile. i dont really mean move in the sense of really moving. just gonna stop writing here and throwing up things, these things, in another blog. temporarily, of course.

so you, loyal readers, would you excuse me for some more time? its been some time since i wrote anything worth reading anyway. in the mean time, join me in believing that everything happens for a reason.

Arti Hidupku

Tiap hari lepas tiap hari dengan rasa berat hati
Hidup yang penuh arti ini mengapa jadi begini
Marilah tegak berdiri menghadapi hidup yang berarti
Kuasa dan tujuan hidup ini dalam iman dan kasih
Hidup bukan karena hari, hidup hanya karena arti
Bebas dari segala dosa, itulah arti hidupku.

In a dire need to read again The Purpose Driven Life. Or the Bible. Or to have again that quite time I used to have years ago, when life was just as simple as black and white.

Moments

This is one of those awkward moments. Those moments when you know that that guy is about to ask you for a date. Sooner or later. You know he will. And you know that as attractive as he is, as much fun you had with him, as much as you enjoy spending hours with him, you still don't want to date him. Even if he treats you better, much much better than the other guy, you still want that other guy. Even if, as sure as hell, he will know how to take care of you much much better than the other guy, you still want the other guy. You still miss him, you still cling on that thin line of hope that someday, someday, he will want you too.

This is one of those awkward moments. Those moments when you are prepared to say no to anyone except the one you always think about, your ideal. Those moments when you know for sure that you ideal is an ideal, someone you will never be equal to, someone whose standards you will never be up to.

Then you remember an advice you gave to someone in the past: to give it a chance. A bit less than an ideal might be enough. A lot more than an ideal might suit you better. Who knows, it might turn out to be great. Who knows if you don't want to give it a try?