investment grade!

beloved country is on investment grade now after 14 years! so want to write about it but so no time. haha. hear hear, i talk like a devoted 9gagger now! so tired and so helpless. stupid simulations or stupid me? blah. took an arrow to the knee!

anyways, good job, fellas! investment grade yay! keep up the good job, kill all the corruptors, hoho! just as a propos, based on the scale of fellow 9gaggers, the scale would be:
justin bieber
super easy
easy
normal
hard
super hard
chuck norris
asian
russian (because 100% is not enough)
i will consciously ignore russian, for personal and professional reason. so asian rules!

yay yay yay! investment grade! got a reason to celebrate. can sleep early. worry about simulations tomorrow. 

Awkward

The awkward moment when you realize that you feel nothing at all and are fine with it.
Forever alone maximum level achieved. Just take an arrow to the knee, 140% correct if you're in Russia.

Definitely spend too much time in 9gag.

A Necessary Ending

That's the sermon in Elim church yesterday. Immediately later yesterday, things started to happen, things that urge me to apply whatever I have learned from that sermon. To apply the understanding that there are necessary endings to some things so that other things may happen; there are necessary endings to good things so that better ones may take place; there are necessary endings to one stage so that other stage may start.

This is my necessary ending to the one I have been struggling with over a year. This is it. I am going to another phase in life. May God help me.

So So So Tired, So So So Bored

Back pain now.

Head ache every now and then.

I'm so so so tired.

But I'm still so far from getting this thing done.

Some times brain is just dead when it is supposed to work.

Some times it refuses to shut down when it's time to stop.

The price I have to pay...

For a decision made by anger and disappointment.

 

There's a price for everything. 

There's really no such thing as free lunch...

 

I'm so so so tired.

and so so so bored.

But you haven't seen the end of me. 

I ask God

I ask God:
why
when
where
why
how
what
why
why
why
why
why why why

And all I hear is silence

Are you really silent, God?
Or am I so numb, God?
Or so deaf, blind, ignorant?

All those unanswered questions.
And life goes on, like it never matters.

I Want to Sing Out Loud!!!!

Ever since I arrived in this land of rain and wind, I noticed one thing that I quit doing altogether: singing my heart out loud, except for that barely one hour period of praise and worship during sunday service every week. I couldnt do it in my on campus accomodation, my bahtroom-mate will hear me clearly and she might be studying anytime of the day, of the life of postgrad (or the non existence of life of postgrad). Even when she wasnt in her room, people outside can hear me quite clearly and would think that another student has lost her mind.

 

After moving off campus, it was even more difficult. I shared a house, first with two guys, then with two girls. The walls were thin. I couldnt just sing. Sometimes, like a moron, I will sing in low voice while walking to the learning grid. I desperately want to sing! Hufff huffff....

Galau (2)

galau

 

God, always listening, always understanding

 

galau

:)

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PATHETIC!