How Could I?

Why did I forget? How could I?

You used to be my baby brother, remember? The one I always want to protect from the world. Our mother used to tell how sad and angry I would be if anyone dared teasing you, my beloved little brother. I would stand against the world and hugged you lovingly. I have always wanted to share everything with you, you were the centre of my world, our baby world.

You used to be my guardian angel, remember? The one who always took me everywhere since I never had any friends with me. You took me to play kites with you, play the marbles with all your friends. You taught me how to ride a two-wheeled bike when I only knew how to ride a four-wheeled one. You would cry harder when I hurt myself, falling from that bike because you have always thought that it was your duty to take care of me, your little big sister.

You used to be my best friend, remember? We could talk for hours and never run out of stuffs to talk about. I used to adapt your views, you took mine, without questions. I have always been proud of you, my handsome and kind-hearted brother. The world might prefer you to me, given that you are a world much nicer and easier to get along with, given that you were (and still are) so likeable but it would only made me even more proud to be your old little sister.

You used to be my biggest enemy, remember? We have fought over everything, yelled at each other, saying horrible things, hurting each other like no one else could do. You have hurt me the way no one else in the world could do. I know I have hurt you in the most unbelieveable ways too, and I hope your heart has mended somehow.

But we used to be the best team ever, remember? We took care of our parents when we grew up. We helped our parents over problems on our younger brother and sister. We, just the two of us, held our tears and worked out all the necessities for our beloved father funeral. You hugged me tightly when I was sobbing uncontrollably, I comforted you in my arms through your overflowing tears, but then we strengthen each other like no one could do.

And now, oh now, do you know that you are still my baby brother, my guardian angel, one of my best friends, and my best team mate? So why, I wonder, why in the world I forgot such an important thing in your life? How could I have missed that precious moment?

Look at you, beloved brother, now a father of a very beautiful baby girl. Be the best. Make her be proud of you, make her look up to you, make her love you so, just like I always do to our father. So happy for you. Have an awesome family in the love of our God!