Moments

This is one of those awkward moments. Those moments when you know that that guy is about to ask you for a date. Sooner or later. You know he will. And you know that as attractive as he is, as much fun you had with him, as much as you enjoy spending hours with him, you still don't want to date him. Even if he treats you better, much much better than the other guy, you still want that other guy. Even if, as sure as hell, he will know how to take care of you much much better than the other guy, you still want the other guy. You still miss him, you still cling on that thin line of hope that someday, someday, he will want you too.

This is one of those awkward moments. Those moments when you are prepared to say no to anyone except the one you always think about, your ideal. Those moments when you know for sure that you ideal is an ideal, someone you will never be equal to, someone whose standards you will never be up to.

Then you remember an advice you gave to someone in the past: to give it a chance. A bit less than an ideal might be enough. A lot more than an ideal might suit you better. Who knows, it might turn out to be great. Who knows if you don't want to give it a try?